Throughout the past week, God has really been nudging. Kind of annoying, in all actuality, I wish He would just shove sometimes. (Is it ok that I said God’s nudging is annoying? I am actually thankful for it) Recently, God has been gracious enough to show me that sin is separating us.
“Strive for peace with everyone, and for the holiness without which no one will see the Lord.” Hebrews 12:14
“And everyone who hears these words of mine and does not do them will be like a foolish man who built his house on the sand. And the rain fell, and the floods came, and the winds blew and beat against that house, and it fell, and great was the fall of it.” Matthew 7:26-27
Sin obviously has been a separator, and I have been lax to care to do much about it. In the worldly sense, I am still living and still have bountiful blessings and can see God work in my life. The issue I was struggling with was and is, why do I see him work so much in my life, but I feel like I hardly know him. Worse, I have been content in coasting along in life without much change or growth.
Bottom line, I didn’t want my heart changed. I felt guilty, but deep inside I had the lie rooted in me that it was ok to continue on coasting through life.
“Create in me a clean heart, O God and renew a right spirit within me. Cast me not away from your presence and take not your Holy Spirit from me. Restore to me the joy of your salvation and uphold me with a willing spirit.” Psalm 51:10-11
I have really enjoyed Psalm 51 lately. Its an awesome example of confession/struggle with sin and truly seeking a change of heart. All in all, I’ve learned that it is God’s strength and Holy Spirit that we must pull from to kill sin, not our own. However much I may have known that before, I am beginning to truly understand and apply it. Maybe that nudging isn’t so annoying after all. I hope He doesn’t stop.
